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ive no idea whats going on with me recently,
am i being insensitive or too sensitive? lol.
i dont know.

im trying very hard not to be bothered or affected bout' it.
im sorry but i care, so i cant.
it had always been so easy to tell you everything,
but its getting harder now.

just let it go,
dont be too bothered bout' it. (:

aye, anyway,
my babies are leaving one by one. :(
asher's gone in a new school,
and now cayden love and baby anson are gonna migrate to perth.
its better for the kiddos though,
they would def be in better hands when they're in perth.
but well, missessss!!
maybe aisha is right,
as time goes by, i will be used to having my babies leaving..

hopefully, i will be taking the new batch of kinderones next year!!

alrighty!

ive no idea why am i so up high,
when today hve been sucha tiring day.
and without any idea,
idk why i cant stop smiling to myself. (:

i was feeling so much.
right here, right now,
when i wanna let it all out,
simply speechless.

i wanna live,
i wanna be back in life.

missing those bitching sessions,
and those all dressed up days.

i dont need ya to appreciate,
i dont expect ya to be thankful.
a lil bit of understanding,
is it too much to give?

&all random, totally no idea wtf am i ranting bout.

&& go away irritating flu bug.
this is def not the time to be down; year end concert coming up on sat!

eveything's gone,
its not possible to salvage it at all.

gone, lost.
a better me, i hope.

hohohoho.
eli is a happy girl today. (:

1. my friday started out good with a morning call from bby,
as i decided that well, maybe,
i should bus to work instead of cabbing every morning.
laze on my bed for a minute or two,
and off i went to prepare myself!
oooh! i even make my own breakfast- bread w skippy chunky peanut butter and glass of ribena [must-have every morning]!
as i would always take my breakfast when im otw to work [on the cab, duh!],
i had my breakfast at home today!
im not in a rush at alll!! hehehe.
super proud of myself! -beams around.

2. i get to see my precious asher baby after like donkey years [m exaggerating, its three weeks].

3. asher remembers us and still feels comfortable being around in school.

4. bby and i went suntec for shopping.

5. i wore heels.

6. dinner, shopping and movie -'jennifer's body' with bby love!

simple lil things yet im sooooo contented.
everything adds up to perfection! hehehe.
enjoyed myself today.

omgg.
as the time ticks,
my heart seems t be skipping every beat as i look at the door,
or when i hear the sound of the gate.

somehow or rather,
i watched him grow.
the first time i saw him,
he's just a baby,
who only knows how to lie in the rocker.
i watched him flip, crawl,
helped him to toddle around,
watched him promoting to playgroup,
carrying a school bag by himself,
learning how to speak and he,
would always call me by my name.

and this precious baby of mine changed to a new school eversince the start of oct,
as the parents shifted house to west,
and the mummy just gave birth to his lil brother, issac,
thus, the change of a new school.

but...
asher's mummy is bringing him back today to visit us!
i can't wait to see my asher baby!
i told bby last night,
before asher's mummy says she's coming during the kiddos naptime,
that ive no idea what time will i leave work,
as i will def wait for them to come and see the little one!

&& as im typing this post, i can't help looking at the door.

i miss that lil kiddo.

another heart to heart talk,
will things change?

ive no idea at all.

the position that i hold,
the priorities that you had,
i know very well,
and i can tell.

at least, for a second,
i believed that you care,
for us.
at least, i choose to believe that,
you were conned into the decision.

still, i deserved it,
for i stood by my principles.
is this my karma, i wonder.
i led sucha good and princessy life before i knew love,
and nobody's life is perfect,
nobody's life is forever princessy and happy.

fairytales dont exist in my life,
and will never happen to me.
im not a troubled princess,
as im lucky to be pampered since young.
thus, i dont need a prince riding on a horse of white,
to rescue me.
that's life, and the karma which i always believe in.
and that's destiny,
which nobody can change.

i will be strong.