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hohohoho.
eli is a happy girl today. (:

1. my friday started out good with a morning call from bby,
as i decided that well, maybe,
i should bus to work instead of cabbing every morning.
laze on my bed for a minute or two,
and off i went to prepare myself!
oooh! i even make my own breakfast- bread w skippy chunky peanut butter and glass of ribena [must-have every morning]!
as i would always take my breakfast when im otw to work [on the cab, duh!],
i had my breakfast at home today!
im not in a rush at alll!! hehehe.
super proud of myself! -beams around.

2. i get to see my precious asher baby after like donkey years [m exaggerating, its three weeks].

3. asher remembers us and still feels comfortable being around in school.

4. bby and i went suntec for shopping.

5. i wore heels.

6. dinner, shopping and movie -'jennifer's body' with bby love!

simple lil things yet im sooooo contented.
everything adds up to perfection! hehehe.
enjoyed myself today.

omgg.
as the time ticks,
my heart seems t be skipping every beat as i look at the door,
or when i hear the sound of the gate.

somehow or rather,
i watched him grow.
the first time i saw him,
he's just a baby,
who only knows how to lie in the rocker.
i watched him flip, crawl,
helped him to toddle around,
watched him promoting to playgroup,
carrying a school bag by himself,
learning how to speak and he,
would always call me by my name.

and this precious baby of mine changed to a new school eversince the start of oct,
as the parents shifted house to west,
and the mummy just gave birth to his lil brother, issac,
thus, the change of a new school.

but...
asher's mummy is bringing him back today to visit us!
i can't wait to see my asher baby!
i told bby last night,
before asher's mummy says she's coming during the kiddos naptime,
that ive no idea what time will i leave work,
as i will def wait for them to come and see the little one!

&& as im typing this post, i can't help looking at the door.

i miss that lil kiddo.

another heart to heart talk,
will things change?

ive no idea at all.

the position that i hold,
the priorities that you had,
i know very well,
and i can tell.

at least, for a second,
i believed that you care,
for us.
at least, i choose to believe that,
you were conned into the decision.

still, i deserved it,
for i stood by my principles.
is this my karma, i wonder.
i led sucha good and princessy life before i knew love,
and nobody's life is perfect,
nobody's life is forever princessy and happy.

fairytales dont exist in my life,
and will never happen to me.
im not a troubled princess,
as im lucky to be pampered since young.
thus, i dont need a prince riding on a horse of white,
to rescue me.
that's life, and the karma which i always believe in.
and that's destiny,
which nobody can change.

i will be strong.

tell me why am I still here,
gimme a reason for holding on.

years you wanna me to wait,
but dear,
show it to me that it's all worthy.
tiring and sick, i may get.
prove to me that you're worthy of the wait.

my heart aches at every single arguments,
its all cause I love,
thus I chose silence.
im not afraid, at all.
no, not at all.

cry, is not outta fear.
silence, is not outta guilt.
everything has a reason,
and mine has only one.
its because in this world,
there is love.

love does not make the world go round,
but loving you does.
loving you, makes my world go round.
a simple act fr ya,
or a sweet thought fr ya,
its good enough to make my day.
a sigh fr ya,
a frown fr ya,
it's good enough to pull me down all day.

i gotta admit,
im weak,
for i love you so.

but do you still remember how?

don't be like a bomb,
ticking away.

was surfing the net.
and like always, i browse thru' yahoo news.
here are some shocking and interesting news that i had read.

6 firefighters die in India, trapped in elevator
By RAJESH SHAH,Associated Press Writer - Sunday, October 18

MUMBAI, India – Six firefighters died early Sunday after they were trapped in a smoke-filled elevator while trying to reach a fire in a building in India's financial capital, an official said.

The firefighters were on their way to a burning 14th floor apartment in Mumbai and apparently died from asphyxiation due to smoke, a city fire brigade official said on condition of anonymity as he was not authorized to talk to reporters.

The elevator got stuck between two floors due to a mechanical failure, the official said, and efforts by other firefighters to rescue them failed.

The remaining firefighters put out the fire, the official said.

adapted from: http://sg.news.yahoo.com/ap/20091018/tap-as-india-firefighters-dead-d3b07b8.html

the first thought that came to my mind was why in the first place they took the lift?
every lift will always have that warning saying, 'IN CASE OF FIRE DO NOT TAKE LIFT'.
i couldnt make any sense outta it.
public, untrained personnel like us, know that.
moreover, they are firemen- trained!
seriously, i dont understand why.
still, RIP people.

Baby OK after train hits stroller in Australia
AP - Saturday, October 17

MELBOURNE, Australia – A 6-month-old baby has miraculously survived a train hitting his stroller, which rolled onto the tracks when his mother let go for an instant.

The escape was captured on security camera footage that shows the red, three-wheeled stroller plunging off a station platform just as the commuter train pulls in, and the mother's panicked lunge to grab it.

The train pushed the stroller about 130 feet (40 meters) along the tracks before it stopped, but it did not go under the train.

The baby, who was strapped into the stroller, received only a bump on the head.

Police said they released the video, which was captured last Thursday at a suburban station in the southern city of Melbourne, to underscore the need for people to be extra safety conscious when using the train system.

The dramatic footage led news bulletins across Australia and was shown internationally, and on YouTube.

Police have not identified the mother, who wished to remain anonymous, and say the incident was an accident.

"It's amazing how many people get too close to the tracks despite the dangers," Sgt. Michael Ferwerda told reporters. "We've had a lucky escape and it is a chance for commuters to heed warnings to be more careful."

The security footage shows the mother stopping on the platform with the stroller facing the tracks. She lets go of the stroller's handle without applying the brake, and appears to hitch her pants with both hands.

The stroller's front wheel drifts toward the track, and the stroller rolls toward the edge, flipping over as it hits the tracks. The mother spots it just before it pitches over the side, and lunges forward _ too late.

The train pulls into the station, and the mother clutches her face in apparent panic and devastation. As the train stops, onlookers rush forward. The whole incident took about seven seconds.

Paramedic Jon Wright said the baby received only minor injuries and was returned to his mother within a few minutes of the accident occurring.

"Apparently he needed a feed and a nap," Wright was quoted as saying by the Sun Herald newspaper. "Luckily he was strapped into his pram at the time, which probably saved his life. I think the child's extremely lucky,"

Connex, the privately owned train operator said the driver was being offered counseling for possible trauma caused by the incident.

adapted from: http://sg.news.yahoo.com/ap/20091017/tap-as-australia-train-hits-baby-2nd-ld-79704af.html

OMGG I TELL YOU!
I TOTALLY FREAK OUT WHEN I SAW THE VIDEO!
seriously, thank God that the baby is alive and only has a bump on his head.
goodness, i cant imagine how it would be if the baby is not strapped to his pram.
the funny thing is, which i cant understand,
why would the pram move by itself?
yeh, the mom did not use the brakes for the pram.
the pram would def not move by itself, if the platform is 180 degrees straight.
and from the video, the pram seems to be rolling off quite fast.
let's say, if the platform is not exactly 180 degrees straight,
give it a plus minus, but still a flat platform,
the pram may roll off, but not at that speed right?
unless, the platform is a slope,
which i think, will be quite dangerous.
kids maybe wearing those shoes w wheels [whatever you call that],
and may roll down the tracks just liddat too.
comments were saying how the mom should have used brakes,
yes, i agree; that will def prevent accidents from happening.
i wonder, what's the structure of the platform like.

Mum stressed by video of baby surviving train crush
AFP - Sunday, October 18


MELBOURNE (AFP) - – The mother of an Australian baby which miraculously survived a collision with a train is still recovering from the experience and becomes upset by footage of the accident, a report said Sunday.

The six-month-old boy, who has not been named, was strapped into a pram which rolled away from his mother and into the path of an oncoming train at Melbourne's Ashburton station on Thursday.

The train driver slammed on the brakes but was unable to avoid hitting the stroller which was pushed about 35 metres (yards) along the tracks before coming to a stop. The baby escaped with only a bump to the head.

The incident was captured by a surveillance camera and the video has been shown around the world, sparking the interest of US talkshow queen Oprah Winfrey whose producers have contacted Victoria Police to interview the mum.

The baby's father said his wife had seen the footage, which shows her slipping as she attempts to grab the pram as it rolls away and then almost getting hit by the train herself in a bid to save the baby.

"My wife has seen the footage, but every time she sees it she gets very upset," the 20-something man, who asked not to be identified, told Melbourne's Sunday Herald Sun.

"My wife is very stressed. We are all OK -- my wife and my baby are OK -- but we really just need some time to get over this."

Parademics said the fact that the baby was properly strapped into the pram at the time of the accident probably saved his life.

adapted from: http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20091018/tap-australia-transport-baby-offbeat-5a1703c.html

sometimes, media can really be annoying.

good morning.
oh god and yes,
im still up at this unearthly hour despite the lack of sleep for the past few days.
my eyes can barely open yet i still dont wanna head to bed.
despite heading to bed at 3 in the morning and an early day at 8,
its hard falling asleep.
this had been the cycle recently,
and i totally ve no idea whats going on.

im not in my best of moods,
i get upset at the slightest thing.
yeh, upset; angry, sad, disappointed, frustrated, pissed.
i thought, maybe, for the first time,
i was pmsing.
this had been going on for a while,
and im def too young to have menopause.

those crazy thoughts,
those absurd dreams, or nightmares,
brought me tears and fears.
waking up with tears,
it def dont sound pleasing t anyone's ears.
its scary, really.
everything seems to be going haywire for me,
i dont know.

nothing makes sense,
nothing sounds logical.
i cant piece it out, word by word.
i cant phrase it, i cant explain it.
i dont know how, i really dont.
i wished i knew.
i couldnt control my tears and my fears,
for i dont even know the roots of it.
everything dont piece up,
its all random.

i really wished,
i could piece everything out.
i really wanted to,
as there seems to be tons of stuffs bottling up,
inside me, in my heart, i can feel.
but i just cant.
every breath that i take,
is heavy and with difficulty.

Friend A dumped his girlf,
and that had invited trouble.
the only way to resolved this,
was that Friend B hafta die in A's behalf.
B helped A.
B is alive in the coffin,
knowing that he's gonna be cremated the next day.
there we were,
sitting around the coffin,
knowing that B is alive in there.
all those while, i kept my head low,
fearing to look up.
C was B's girlf,
C was there too,
and she appeared to be the normal her.
deep down, i wondered how she felt.
deep down, i hate A,
for B took up the responsibility for A's actions.

this was what i dreamt of earlier during my nap.
im not kidding!
and i have random and weird dreams liddat.
when i say random,
it really means random as things dont piece up when i put everything together.

im going crazy, am i?
tell me whats going on.
its scaryy.
no joke, im scared.

everything feels so messed up.
october worksheets are yet to be done,
something is wrong with my ms word.

i dont ask for anything much,
its just the basis of it.

am i asking for too much?

i needa break.

and you, effing bitch.
im sucha hater.
no, im being soooo negative.

i cant help it.

bring me a smile.

everything adds up,
does not make any effing sense.

oh, im happy.
its like finally i gotta see sw today,
for that short while at work.

looking forward to thursday!

insanityy!

i think im pmsing,
i never do.
wtf.

ignore me.

My first time here. I had meatball spaghetti and rate it 2/10. It's that bad. The cakes look tempting but I had already lost my appetite. o.O

wooooo!
finally I'm back in the cooling place.
a really tiring day but it's all worth it as I finally watch e whole of d elephant show!
cheers for Bby as that's his purpose of bringing me t the zoo tday! Loveeees!

now we are on our way for steamboat! hoooorrayy!!

im so dead right now.
my deadline for my folder is over like ages ago.
i thought it was 10 working days from the last day of practicum.
hell noooooooo! its 7 working days.
how nice.

i miss joyce.

stop crapping and i really gotta finish all of these by today and hand in tmr!!

alrighty.

some sweet retard is sitting beside me.
as i was showing this retard the compability report,
i showed him the candid shots that i had taken.
he wanna sue me,
too bad, i got disclaimer.
hohohoho.

random.

waiting for this singtel operator, vija something to call me back.

my boyf is irritating.

MIXED FEELINGS

i looked around me,
i listen and i see.

the many things that you cant say in a relationship,
one would share w their friends.

i dont understand.

why cant you tell your partner honestly?
i believe that in every relationship,
you will need to have an open communication.
not just pretending what it does not seem to be.
you never voice out, s/he will never know.

all of the things that i had heard,
were indeed very scary.
i wanted to help, wanted to tell.
i dont wanna judge,
nature will take its own course.

i wonder,
what are the things that you had shared w em,
and the things that i will never know?
what are the things that they will share w others,
and will the listeners react, or feel like me?

i have no idea.
i dont wanna know.
sometimes, knowing too much just kills.
i rather not know.

its scaryy,
knowing too much of boys' stuffs.
at this moment,
i chose silence.
the thought bout' it,
makes my heart skipped a beat.

im sucha useless fool.
even a superman has feelings, has a heartbeat.
so boy, ya just a human, a man.
bottling things up, is miserable.
i wanna you to be a happy man.
iloveyou, bby.

just thought of finding our compatibility report. weeee~

Virgo and Virgo Compatibility - October 4, 2009

When two Virgos join together in a love match, they are likely to structure their lives in beautiful conjunction. The merging of two incredibly practical, industrious sorts such as these creates an incredibly devoted and doting couple although public displays of affection will be rare. Though their shared perfectionism and skepticism could lead to conflict, the level-headed Virgo duo will quickly resolve any disputes and move on to more pleasant times.

The Virgo-Virgo relationship runs like a well-oiled machine, particularly for couples who live together or have children. There is never any confusion over the delegation of responsibility, and both partners feel quite comfortable with this arrangement. Making lists, balancing accounts and keeping the house and affairs in order are second nature to both partners.
They share a discriminating palette and exquisite taste. As long as they aren't too harsh with one another, their relationship will be fulfilling in every way.

Virgo is ruled by the Planet Mercury. This Planet represents communication,
and indeed this is Virgo's shtick. As a romantic couple, both are tuned in to one another's frequencies. Virgo is often able to read the nuances of words and gestures and take in an analytical meaning. One of the strongest points of the relationship is open and honest communication. Also, the reasoning and logical abilities of two Virgos together can quite possibly solve all the world's problems. They are a versatile and brilliant team.

Virgo is an Earth Sign, thus indicating a practical nature. Also, they are a couple who likes to be surrounded by and own elegant things, and who won't settle for second best. It is worth it to hold out for something perfect, rather than to allow for anything less. Virgo exercises caution before moving forward, and they are the first to determine the best action for everyone to -- even if it involves sacrifice. Pickiness makes the Virgo-Virgo team a wonderful romantic couple.

Virgo is a Mutable Sign. They are easily adaptable to any situation or any social setting. There is rarely conflict between them, but when it does arise it is quickly brushed over. Neither is too pushy or domineering, and they share an equal enthusiasm for one another's pursuits. Virgo always follows through, and two of them together doubles this energy and makes a very happy couple.

What's the best aspect of the Virgo-Virgo relationship? It's their levelheaded and structured approach to life, work, fun and commitment.
They're incredibly compatible, and this obvious to them and to their friends. Together, they make a wonderful pair for pleasing one another and
working on the perfect relationship.

practicum visit is over long agooo.
and ive yet finish my practicum folder.
i ve not been concentrating on my work,
i gotta finish it by today.

condition: hyper mode

i prayed for good weather condition later at ecp.
bby is gonna bring me there to play candles, fire sparkles and lanterns! hoooooorraayyy! (:

gotta go to dress myself up now!!
weeeeeee~
gonna take pictures def! loveeeeees!

oh. bby just crashed his car.
he says its at the driver seat there.
the other party is gonna compensate him for the damage.
lucky he's fine.

well....

had a long, eventful, fun, expensive day.
long day as everything began last night; stayover at the center w some kiddos.
eventful day as we had mac breakfast w the children in the center together,
headed to the zoo, jurong point for lunch and vivocity for toysrus shopping.
fun day as outing w the beloveds. shane boy, michael darling and joven precious are really entertaining.
credits t the three lil devils for making me smile despite every muscle just wanna to remain still.
expensive day as we took maxicab, cab from center t redhill, redhill to center, center to zoo, zoo to jurong point, jurong point to center, center to vivo, vivo to strathmore and redhill.
imagine the cab fare humans.
ooooh yeh, i BUS home from redhill today. praise me!! (:

im soooooooooooooooooooo tired!
im soooooooooooooooooooo tired!
im soooooooooooooooooooo tired!
im soooooooooooo sooooooooooooo sooooooooooooooo tired!
physically, intellectually, emotionally.
i know of envies, i know of disgusts.
its tiring when ive gotta try.
every living soul in this world will know draw their own lines, know the dos and the donts, fight for oneself when the line is crossed.
every living soul will do that.
and for G sake, im a fcuking human being.
i have my logics, thinkings, reasons and rules.
when i find things outrageous,
i get blamed for my logics, thinkings, reasons and rules.
once bitten, twice shy. I KNOW.
the feeling aint good so stop rubbing salt into my wound.
if im gonna live the way people wanna me to live,
i believe i do make a wonderful puppet.

im trying effing hard, so dont push.

seriously wtf.
idk what am i ranting about or what triggers it.
totally random but this is how i feel at this very moment.
shitty ayee?

maybe, im just feeling tired in all ways.

& outing pics will be uploaded sooon.
happy children's day!!