solacement

Monday, June 30, 2008

i have two assignments which is due on next monday, 7th july.
one is approx 1000 words and another 8-10 pages long which i think, its close to 5000?
and i have 0% of work done.
so wish me luck people.
i doubt that i can complete it on time and hafta burn my weekend for it.
pract 1 starting next week and got a cute gay MAN for my pract supv.
noted its MAN as he is married with a kid and believed to have a pretty wife.
and i shall keep quiet when he raised his eyebrows. lmao.

don't think i will do my work today cause, i'm super tired and restless from yesterday's wakeboarding.
pictures will be up soon and i didn't manage to stand. :(
on the contrast, jo did really well and manage to stand at the first set!
i sucks, don't i? lol.
but at least, i got tan! when is the last time man? hahaha.
i realise, i have seasick. hahahha.
definitely i'm gonna miss b when he's away.
JOLENE!!!!!! lovelove.

loves, eli.

9:30:00 PM

Thursday, June 26, 2008

woaho! love GSS! (:
did a little shopping at vivo ytd with mummy and bb.
bb was patient enough to wait for mummy and me while we're in shops and again, wait for us while we were at la senza for 1hr?
he once waited for jo and i around 1hr+ while we were at la senza too.
hohoho. where can you find a boy like this? lovess!
went pass mango ytd and its having sales!
didn't went in thou cause bb had already waited long enough so headed for dinner.
i got invitied to the VIP private sale by mng and was allowed to bring one friend along.
i didn't go thou, the timing was like in the afternoon on a weekday? lmao.

and i'm just back from movie with bb.
watched Get Smart.
nice movie and i definitely prefer Get Smart to the no-storyline zohan. hoho. (:
didn't realise anne hathaway was THAT hot till this movie man.
right, no more ali baba. yeh so, overall the movie is great!

ps: more and more leopard prints for me. (:(: i should really get a leopard print cap, shouldn't i jo? heheh. *winkss

overdue pics will be uploaded soon! when i have the time to. heh. (:

loves, eli.

12:12:00 AM

Saturday, June 21, 2008

i'm waiting and still waiting.
i know i shouldn't pin any high hope or to be exact, any hope at all.
i already know the answer yet i'm still waiting.
tears all dried up, red pufferfish eyes and a waiting soul to keep me thru' the night.
drop dead tired from school earlier on and bodyache all over.
and i've to wake up for work later on.
feeling so tired physically but not mentally and emotionally.
i feel so much yet it just appear to be unexplainable; unexplainable thoughts, unexplainable feelings, unexplainable love.

i'm tired about my wants as i don't know yours.
this is a two way thing.

i don't wanna pretend; this is my blog, my life.
you're my soul, my everything.
i wanna say forever but i fear.
you read my heart yet you listen to my tales.
you love, i know.
my heart breaks when you say so [unexplainable].

i realise, love is uncondintional yet unexplainable.
one can be happy with indefinite amount of reasons.
one can be happy without any reason.
but one will be sad with many unexplainable reasons.
with just one simple reason now, you can make me smile.
and that is you, you is all i need and my smile will last thru' the night.
my heart had just sank, its all cause of you.
you will erase away all the unhappiness and lighten my heart.
but i know, its not going to happen.
i've just gotta force some sleep to kill the waiting me.
actions speak louder than words definitely, but its really not easy.

i love you, i miss you.
all i need now is you bb.

loves, eli.

1:21:00 AM

Friday, June 20, 2008

hope everything will be done and go smoothly later.
GO PIRATES! (:

loves, eli.

11:50:00 AM

Sunday, June 15, 2008

you won't like it when i'm hungry.
lmao. bruce banner aka mr green (edward norton) is cute!

well, not literally. but in the show, he is like woah!

if you don't understand, watch the incredible hulk. *winkks.

i totally love the story twist. (if it is a twist. or im too dumb to understand. o.o)

and totally a emotional guy he is.

even though he turns to a monster, he still knows the one he loved and listens to her.

how sweet aye. awwwwww. heheheh. (:

reached home pretty early today, 1+?

talked awhile with bb in the car and yeh, feeling so much better. cheerss!!

so! went shopping and bought spongebob a clone of herself and bought bb patrick! heh.

and bb bought me a super duper cute elmo!! (:(:

another collection to my pretty pretty digi camera. hahah.

talking bout' that, i need to have rhinestones bling on my cam!

cause the silver part somehow peel off or rusted.

and i wanna cover it with the bling.

thinking of buying another instead but hey! i still love my cam.

the design, the colour, the size but damn the rust spoil everything.

and i did try looking at cameras but nothing to my pleasure.

right, back to the topic. heh.

went villa bali to chill.

nick went off early for his soccer match. spain vs switzerland eh? idk. lol.

rufus and efren joined us after their work.

amazed by efren's magic and finally, played the block breaker game on efren's o2.

the last time i played was like ages ago, when i've got the phone.

i didn't regret selling away though. its tiring when i'm messaging. lol.

the thing is just that i bought that phone around 1000 and resell it after 2 weeks like 300?

wtf right. pda phone resale rate sucks.

i'm still waiting for my sony ericsson phone.

please don't be like the n76 and disappoint me ok? hahah.

off to bed, good nights people.

i wanna be incredible! hohoho.

loves, eli.

3:10:00 AM

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

well, not a really long day of work and school on monday.

cause i didn't go school and neither did i go for both today.

went swimming after work with sokwei on monday evening.

wasn't in a best of mood and like what i told jo, swimming helps to 'condensate' some of my troubles and worries away.

despite so, some still stays.

and though the raining days maybe over for b, it remains cloudy still for me.

watched sex and the city earlier and samantha, acted by kim cattrall, asked her friends something like, "is love all about making the other happy? is it all just about him? what about me being happy? are you happy everyday?"

charlotte, acted by kristin davis, went on replying something like, "yes, everyday. at the very least, not the whole day."

these keep on running thru' my head ever since the end of the movie.

and if somebody asked me that question, i think i will say that i'm happy as long as he's happy.

that's the common answer that girlfriends always say.

but how many girls really mean that when they says so?

well in my case, i don't wanna see him undergoing unnecessary stress.

i feel happy when i see him happy. [true]

i might have my unhappiness too [false] but when i see him happy, unhappiness just disappear.

after the day, i will just keep those unhappiness in me. [false]

during times when i'm gonna suffocate, jo and sokwei are always there.

and they're the ones whom make me feel better.

what's that? contradiction? i don't know.

forgive and forget is the way, i know.

but how can i forgive when he simply overlooks all those small yet sensitive and emotional issues?

even a spongebob can have her complaints etc and i'm just a damn dot of sponge.

am i blinded by movies, tales and fairytales?

hate these kinda feelings. go away will you? shooo.

anyway, sokwei will be coming down tomorrow for try-out and if she's working part-time, we will work on different shift.

me, in the morning; 8-1.

her, in the afternoon; 3-7.

full day at work tomorrow though, stay there to accompany her for her try-out.

ps: i know, you've proven yourself that day. i love you.

loves, eli.

1:42:00 AM

Sunday, June 8, 2008

work starting tomorrow.
wonder how's it gonna be like, and hope sw will pass thru' the interview too.
she will definitely add much more fun to the daily stuffs. loves. (:
school after work.
i think i will die during school.
and no more shorts/short skirts/sleeveless/v-neck for eli anymore during mon-fri.
its gonna be sleeve-d shirt, bottoms not above knee length.
so don't be surprise when you see her all covered up. lmao.

its just like working 8 to 5.
work in the morning and school in the afternoon.
and i have to work on alternate saturdays too.
how nice.
and if sokwei is working with me, hope we will be working on the same saturdays.
and hopefully, my working saturdays won't clash with jo's working saturdays.

gotta bathe and sleep.
hafta wake up early and long day!

loves, eli.

10:43:00 PM

Saturday, June 7, 2008

celebration dinner for bb's ord ytd with the group and gary (rufus' friend. nah, not the stupid woodstock).
had a late dinner and went to kpool for pool.
it was packed and we waited.
the table we got was in the middle of no-where without any seatings.
then the thought came up, why in the first place are we even here?
1) so many people
2) no seats for me and jo
3) feel weird standing up and 'marching' round the table
so suggested to end the first game and we headed to fusion.
ha! a better place to chill when we're not playing. (:
took pictures!! (:

finally, a nice one with her.