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hohoho.
finally, the new chapter in my life had started.
and pathetically, it started off with "philosophies, history and tenents".
bb sent me there and its only the first day of lesson yet the assignment is gonna be a group presentation.
grouped together with 4 other girls, which all are fresh "O" graduates too except one.
and all are doing CPT except that very one doing DPT, quite a funny bunch though. (:
we were told to imagine that we're gonna establish a new centre and with that,
we gotta define our philosophy of ECH education, vision statement, rationale of programme and etc.
really hate the philosophy shit thing, have great fun while coming up with our own though. lol.
hafta stay back tmr to do the assignment tomorrow after class and bb says he's gonna pick me up IF he is booking out tmr.
i don't mind him not fetching me but i wanna him to book out. - praying hard* heh. (:
anyway, here is one of the worksheets i've received and find it really nice. so here i am to share!
ps: "philosophies, history and tenents" is a short module and i have hell lotsa worksheets.

Children Learn What They Live; by Dorothy Law Nolte

If children live with criticism, they learn to condemn.
If children live with hostility, they learn to fight.
If children live with fear, they learn to be apprehensive.
If children live with pity, they learn to feel sorry for themselves.
If children live with ridicule, they learn to feel shy.
If children live with jealousy, they learn to feel envy.
If children live with shame, they learn to feel guilty.
If children live with encouragement, they learn confidence.
If children live with tolerance, they learn patience.
If children live with praise, they learn appreciation.
If children live with acceptance, they learn to love.
If children live with approval, they learn to like themselves.
If children live with recognition, they learn it is good to have a goal.
If children live with sharing, they learn generosity.
If children live with honesty, they learn truthfulness.
If children live with fairness, they learn justice.
If children live with kindness and consideration, they learn respect.
If children live with security, they learn to have faith in themselves and in those about them.
If children live with friendliness, they learn the world is a nice place in which to live.

gotta do research. bye!

finally a change of blogskin after much temptations.
decided to go for a much more simple design. (:
firstly, pardon me for the double paragraphing cause for my previous skin,
i've gotta double paragraphed in order to have a paragraph.
sounds like i'm doing some tongue twisting shit. lol.
secondly, pardon me for the time stated at the end of each post cause again,
for my previous skin, there is no time stated for the post and the reason why i need a stated time is cause i sleep at irregular hours and the date of the post won't telly with what i had said. heh.

talking about sleeping at irregular hours, seems like i'm able to sleep like a normal dude again. lol.
i slept yesterday night instead of morning, and woke up in the late morning.
if you know bout' my sleeping hours, you'll know what i'm talking bout. (:

gonna get a new desktop soon and wondering should i get vista or mac? hmmm.
gonna go check out the prices and models stuff later then, do a report and give daddy. (:
and, bb is gonna book out later! hoooorray!!

m really bored cause bb is sleeping away,
gotta this temptation to change a new blogskin to relieve some boredom outta me.
but i'm lazy to. ughh.


ps: skip this post, its really random and blogging without sense. (:


woke up early in the morning today, went breakfast with jun and jos at spize.
chilled and slacked, left when jun's bf is here.
don't ask me why, i don't know. i don't think we have anything in common and fyi, i'm not bearing grudges.
so, jos left with me and cabbed home while jos ride home.
watched vcd and my current addiction, my date with a vampire 2. (:
went over to doreen jie's place to look after baby vernice.
accompanied mabelene jie to paragon medical centre, eye specialist.
didn't have the intention to town initially, so my dressing is super duper slackk.
and yeh, i feel like a weirdo with spects and without makeup. lol.
cabbed to bb's place and the cab's uncle speaks good english.
and know what? he is an university graduate holding a masters degree, majored in economics and minored in philosophy. he graduates from Singapore University, which is now known as NUS. he was an English teacher, worked in a Bank before and now, a cabbie driver. when i ask why, he says he hate work and at least, driving a cab is not that stressful and still have an income. this teaches me a lesson, not all cab drivers are uneducated. (:


ARGH! i think i should go to sleep cause i don't know what time will bb wake up.
uhhh, random i know. buaiBYE.

wohoooo~
bk breakfast yum yum! finally had my bk breakfast and bacon after much cravings (when jolene dear is having her mon-fri blues). looool.
and what can i say about that? its cool and yummmyyy! hahah.
know what? its 1042am now and i already had my bk yummy.
proud enough to say, i wake up as early as 8 in the morning.
the reason for eli being up early? cause she had wayy too much sleep!!
didn't sleep the night before as i was waiting for bb to book out in the early afternoon.
then, we slept around 1+ going 2 and woke up around 11.
the supposing plan was to meet jos for dinner but gotta make it during supper time cause it was really tiring.
we went 126(in cantonese) at geylang for supper. dim sum you know, its real nice and you should really try if you never been there. its at geylang lor 13. (:
and so, went back and reached home around 1+. surprisingly enough, we sleep AGAIN. heh.
so, here i am now blogging and msn-ing with jolene with bb's account.
bb is gonna book in soon and book out tmr morning. so the same routine? hahaha.


BYE! ~

the time now is 12:49pm and im not yet sleeping.
in actual fact, i'm still home and have yet to meet bb.
oh man, people are out shopping and both of us will gonna be pigs. ughhh.
hope all his army shitt will end sooon, its really a torture.
and it is also a test. though this is not the only test we're going thru',
no worries. cause like what i've mentioned in my blog before,
be it ups or downs, bb and i will face it and walk thru' it together.
we'll definitely be there for one another when another problem rise,
and we'll definitely still be there for one another when the problem cease.
i totally believe and have faith in bb and in this relationship cause i know,
we'll still be together 78 days later. then, we have finally passed the toughest test so no matter whatever fcuk is gonna happen in the future,
our love will bond us together and we'll face it together.


I'll always love you - Taylor Dayne
Ill always love you for the rest of my days
You have won my heart and my soul with your sweet sexy ways
You gave me hope when I needed someone near
You bring me happiness everyday of every year


And I'll always love you for all that you are
You have made me life complete, you're my lucky star
You are the one that I've been searching for
You are my everything tell me who could ask for more
Honey this will never end I need you by my side baby
You're my lover my friend oh my friend
You gave my world a thrill I'd never known
And filled my eager heart with a love to call my own
And I'll always love you you must know how much I do
You can count on me forever and I will take good care of you


I'll always love you
I'm so happy that you're mine
And I'll always love you yes
Till the end of time


Oooh ooh ooh


* its not a nice song. i like the lyrics though, meaningful ones. (:

its early in the morning now and my clock proudly reads 9:09am.
and crazy eli is not yet on her bed snoring away and what's the reason?


reason no. 1: i reached home around 530, helped my mummy with her phone stuffs and was only free till 630. watched tv and decided to blog cause i doubt that my date with vampire 2 will get me anywhere.
reason no 2: i couldn't get to bed due to my irregular sleeping timing.
reason no 3: cause of all the above two reasons, decided to wait for bb since he's gonna book out in the late morning.
reason no 4: most importantly, i rather to wait for bb to sleep than sleeping alone, without bb by my side hugging me to sleep. heh.
so, i'm gonna wait for him to book out, pack my stuffs and off to his place to sleep. (:


stayed over bb's place the night before and he made breakfast, or should i say lunch, for me! heh.
though its simply just maggie, popcorn chicken, nuggets and ice-cream waffle, its the thought that counts right? and isn't it just simply sweeeeeeeeet?
slacked over his place and thereafter, bb sent me back home as he gotta book in later in the night. was drop dead tired when i reached home cause i only have like 10 hours of sleep? (fyi, eli needs 12hours of sleep and that's the minimum! heh.)
woke up around 10 and prepared to meet the girls. was lazy to go out initially but its a RARE chance for ff's youngest baby to call the girls out eh. so do i look like i have a choice? LOL. and, i know you're reading this my dear girl. (:
had dinner at tiong and headed to wcp. slackk, couldn't see stars :( thanks to the clouds.
an enjoyable slacking session with the girls and chicken, all the crappy talks like dinosaur walk. lmao.
jos is such a sweetie! he fetch me to bb's century area just to see him.
its freakin' cold and jos ain't wearing any windbreaker or what-so-ever. moreover, its the cemetery area and it will be much colder you know!
and i know that he's tired but he still send me there though. million thanks jos!! i shall give you the best chicken award? heh.
smoked a stick or two with bb and guess what, bb really looks cute in his uniform and jungle hat(if that's what they call).
jos sent me home and yeh, an interesting ride home. lol. ;)


its like finally that i'm gonna meet jolene.
i couldn't remember the last time we met though, sheesha? loool.
and meeting the gang tmr for dinner too! hoooooorraaayyy!!
right now, waiting for bb to book out and i know, his shift had already ended. heh.


anyway, most of the pictures are wayyyyy too overrrdueeeeee. lol.
ky and ferlyn, not that wordy already right? to that extent of effort. why? cause its love famousfive. (:

bb is gonna book out this friday!
this news just simply made my day. heh.
i know its not as though bb is not gonna book out but when he books in yesterday, he didn't know when he'll book out.
i mean, what's life man -waiting without a goal.
i don't mind waiting for bb but its just that i will really wish that i can meet him.
you can jolly well skin me alive if i didn't meet bb when he ain't in camp. heh.
really looking forward to this weekend cause it seems like ages since we really have spend a weekend together and meet the gang.
when he was to book out for 24hours and do his 12hours shift, we don't have any DAYtime out.
like when his shift is in the morning, we'll just go for dinner, slackk and then book in.
when his shift is in the night, we will sleep in the morning and will wake up in the middle of night like 2+, go for supper, slackk and book in.
see, how can we have daytime together. i don't wanna tire him out and wanna him to have enough rest.
and his day/night shift is on alternate days, like day 1 night shift, day 2 morning shift, so getting sufficient rest is really important.
but at the very least, i should be thankful. cause i can see bb everyday, so i think its fair enough. (:


had a rather late dinner with jos and slacked with yuqin too.
jos went off to meet rufus, so yuqin and i waited for jie.
talked, slacked. i like the way it is.
and jos came back, without me knowing and was nice enough to scare the hell out of me.
just simply pop out from my back and "wo", was really scary okayy.
imagine, he was holding his helmet and when i turn, i can only see a black figure which is his helmet.
i yelled like nobody's business and trembled in fright can. so jos, if you're reading this, i almost died from heart attack. all thanks to you, mr chicken. -.-
continue slacking with jos joining in and sharing all the histories. hahha.
its nice and enjoying, really. time really flies when you're really into the conversation. (:


looking forward to good friday, it will definitely be good. cause bb is with me. lovelove. (:

fcuk. know what? i'm down with a terrible flu.
all thanks to my bb boy for the disease. urghh.
anyway, bb sent me to orientation today. sweetie boy of mine, loves!!(:
left home like an hour earlier in order to find our way there.
reached there quite early so accompanied bb for lunch.
thought my class will be starting thereafter but no.
school will be starting like weeks so i gotta rot at home within these weeks again.
new class, new people, new life? lmao.
wonder how is it gonna be man, isit gonna be fun? i don't know. haha.
went to the orientation and instead of being the noisy and sociable eli, i'm alone all the wayy.
yehh surprisingly, eli kept quiet thru'out the whole orientation thing. and that seriously suckks.
got the timetable and will be having a really slack time in semester one.
many days of holidays and then, first attachment.
m really looking forward to the attachments and fyi, there are two attachments!! hoorayy!!
right, i'm sooooooo psyche bout' the attachments cause i believe its definitely gonna be fun and it will benefit me in this new chapter in my life. and i promise, i will do my attachment full with looove! CHEERS! (:
and semester two will really gonna be a busy one as the only holidays will be on PH and weekends. SAD! :( then, second attachment and graduation! haha.
thankfully enough, the classes' duration ain't long. so i THINK, things should be fine. lol.
initially i thought that i can skip all the literature shit when i've graduated from the school which says, "literature is compulsory for all students," i still gotta study the damn philosophy. OH GOD, KILL ME!!
i seriously hate it and pray hard that i won't fall asleep cause its the first module of the damn course i'm taking. urghh.


headed home after orientation and waited for bb to cab to my place.(he'll be staying in camp so no driving)
fell asleep on the sofa while waiting for bb and yeh, when that silly apparently stand outside the door when he reached. like what people always say, girls always have sixth sense.
true enough, i feel somebody watching, so fidgeted to look at the door.
then, saw him standing there and called me 'baby' sweetly. heh.
slacked at my place, accompanied him for dinner and accompanied him to wait for cab back to camp too.
met up with jos after he's back from m'sia and he bought me dunhill menthol! heh. thanks jos! (:
and he brought me to a very nice desert stall in bugis. really yummy, shall bring bb there someday. and i'm sure he will like it. heh.
as eli always have her mango craze, she had mango sago.
you can get full just by eating the mango cubes, so imagine. hahaha.


AND! the weather was good yesterday!
went to geyland to have dimsum, ages since i really ate dimsum.
after a super duper full lunch, we headed to ecp. lucky enough none of us get appendictis, it was really a heavy lunch okayy.
cycled and played on the beach with baby kez!
after that, i had body-ache all over and this means, i needa exercise more cause i haven't been exercising. lmao.


hope that bb will be booking out soon. misses*
and please, 82 more days to go. :(


rather randomly but just thought of this song. haha.

was browsing thru' blogs till i came upon 2e1's blog, i mean the 04 batch.
after years, the blog is still there publishing the latest post dated 23-10-2004, 4.57pm.
and the latest message, "happy new year guys! its 2005! heh. work hard this year. its a crucial year for our Os next year. study hard, take care and God bless! two-e-one forever."
in fact, 2e1 is a really nice class.
if you ask me if i miss secondary school-life, i will say no. i miss the teachers, teachers like mrtham. (:
but if you ask me which of the five years in tss i miss the most?
that will definietly be the secondary 2 days;
mr chua(the nice one), albert chua(cockeye chua), the clique of friends at that time, netball and the girls(netball girls).
the most beautiful memories for the whole fcuking 5 years in that school, hate it.


anyway, the conclusion for ytd post was that no matter how much a pig loves shopping or is a shopaholic, a pig is still a pig. (:
no shopping sessions at all, ended up with sleeping sessions instead. haha.
didn't sleep till bb book out ytd but neither did we sleep long.
everyone's all-time favourite chicken called like 5+/6 and decided to meet up for dinner.
was lazing on the bed till 630 cause i'm really bloody hell tired. sorry jos. (:
was very upset with bb due to some stuffs but decided not to pursue it.
had nikon hura(couldn't really remember the name) for dinner and caught the 1 o'clock movie at cathay- STEP UP 2. its awwwwwesome and reallyyyy nice-yo!! billions thumbs up* ;)
went to bb's place as he wanted to take his uniform.
rest a little over his place as there were 3 more hours till the show and jos went to meet his friend, most importantly, we're both tired! heh. (:
and when we wake up, there is this knock on the door, which got bb and me really pissed.
think back how many times have we made that mistake and how many times have ya'll made that mistake? and most importantly, my boyfriend stays there too. so think twice bout' your tone and your attitude before causing the two brothers stirring up a 'war' cause of us. i don't wanna see that happening.
kinship is important, you might not treasure it but never inflict in on others.
ohh yah, fyi, for whatever bullstory that you had said, or whatever impression bb's parents left on me, i seriously don't give a damn cause my family and i are doing things with a clear conscious.
uhh okay, i know.. I SHOULD STOP GETTING PERSONAL HERE!! chill chill yo.


pray that the weather will be fine tmr, might be cycling tmr with cousins and meeting bb at night! wohooo~ happyhappy. (:

GOOD MORNING! (:
its 7:01 in the morning.
did some little change to the template & etc to relieve boredom.
wonder why did i not go on msn when i'm online for 5 hours.
meeting bb like early afternoon yet here i am, blogging.
arghh, kill me.
will shopping keep a shopaholic pig awake? i think so/not.
answers will be revealed next day. (i usually blog after 00:00)

its a friday night and eli is home damn early. haha.
in actual fact, i don't even know its friday till a call came.
sy: where you?
me: home, why?
sy: so good girl? friday night eh. never go out?
me: lazy ah. (though i'm surprised its a friday night)
sy: no where to go or lazy to go out?
me: lazy la.
bla bla bla, sy chats with me randomly.
me: eh, don't disturb me eh. i watching tv.
sy: okok, bye.
me: bye.
* continue watching my tv.
bb is booking in-out, in-out and that's the reason i guess.
really happy to see him almost everyday but just can't bear to see him sleep at irregular inconstant hours. it tiring, really. :(


anyway, enjoyed myself to the MAX the past 2 days yo.
the girls had a sleepover 'party' over jun's place and all are dressed up in pjs!
so expect bitching, gossiping and dirty little secrets. wohoo, its just the girls' duty when we're out into this world so we can't resist them. (:(:
we couldn't fall asleep initially so we ordered macbreakfast and were discussing how good will it be if there are bk breakfast, with all the bacons and yum.
however, before the deliveryman came, all of us fell asleep.
and the delieveryman with his helmet on looks STUN! hahaha.
sw and ky went off early for interview and sw met us at jun's place and went shopping.
had superdog for dinner and we were discussing how super is their dog. full of shit yeh? haha.
and started shopping around 830?? and spent 100 over within an hour? heh.
i've been shopping lately and had spent tons of money. gonna be broke soon man. haha.
whatever it is, i enjoyed the outings with the girls. lovin' them still though they're really bitchy and idiotic. xoxo(:
met up with kelly and liyu earlier on too.
its like FINALLY! hahah.
talked alot and i seemed like a clown to them.
they were surprised that eli read! haha.
watched movie, Horton. liyu and i laughed like mad while kelly remains 'cool'. that cold blooded girl. haha.


took tons of pictures and will upload them soon.
i have bloody hell no of emails which im lazy to view thru' which is important, which is not.
thanks ff, love you girls!
gonna meet bb later for shopping and movie session!! hoooorrrayyyy!!
lovelovelove tons. (:

wohoo aloha!
well, finally i went swimming after saying it for ages. haha.
i mean swimming yeh, really swam.
couldn't remember the last time i really swam before ytd man.
its like 83794398492801 years? haha.
wore a one-piece swimwear and i'm totally not used to it at all.
its like another 849738924021840193012943 years since i last wore one-piece swimwear.
and i seriously have problems finding it.
i don't wanna wear bikinis or whatsoever to swimming complex, will find it really weird.
hmph, i'm gonna get a one-piece swimwear soon, those trendy ones though. haha.


i'm supposed to be back in bed as the clock shows 7:13am now.
slept around 2+ earlier and here i am blogging away.
cause i'm hungry. so ordered macdelivery.
waiting for my yummy to be deliever at the doorstep. haah.
i miss burgerking breakfast and i miss the bacon!!
didn't order bb's share cause he's so into whatever dreamland it is.
know he is bloody hell tired so not gonna wake him up to ask him if he wanna eat.
its so dumb and i know, he can sleep till anytime in the late noon.
right, anyway my yummy is here and byebye!
off eating my yummy yum yum. ahhaha.

had an early night earlier.
woke up in the middle of the night though.
and went supper with jos cause i slept without having dinner.
thanks jos! (:
bb is gonna book out soon, within a few hours.
so i'm gonna just wait for him to sleep. heh.
hope the SAF plan thingy will last till the matter has settled down.


school is starting real sooon.
byee! gonna watch my show. haha.

m thinking if bb will be able to book out on friday,
things are just so fcuked up recently.
and i completely hate it.
can somebody kill me?
i will love you to bits.


ps: i think i should be back like anybody else, sleeping in the night, waking up in the day. these irregular hours will turn me crazy. argh.


i need a hug real bad. :(

i'm soooooooooo freakin' BORED.
had breakfast? nope.
had lunch? nope.
had dinner? nope.
i just wake up. fyi, its 8.15pm now.
dine out or dine in?
dine out means anything i please and,
dine in means maggie.
or just skip the meals and go on diet?
full of shit, i know.
right, the main issue is:
should i step out of my house or not?
people are calling me out to meet up yet i'm not in the mood to.
oh yah. anyway, went back home early in the morning.
so no swimming sessions and no perking ups.
why am i not in the mood to hang out? i don't know.
feelin' so lazy to doll up to hang out like any other girls on weekend.
but hey! its weekend man, its saturday!
feels so lethargic and i can't feel the enthusiasm in me at all.
i know i haven't been meeting up with you girls recently, sorry.
right, i'm avoiding.
the very reason is cause bb is not here with me on this weekend. shuggs.


the hope of him gonna be booking out on sunday just tarnished.
daniel just told me that the chances of them booking out are very slight. fcuk.
its like got called back into camp when you're having off and,
there ain't any make-up offs? wtff.
things are such an ass, fcuking hell.
make-up offs is not the issue.
the issue is that majority of them ain't carrying liferounds cause the superiors say that the crimminal is unarmed.
THINK. if the guy can run out just like that and escaped the cctv eyes,
don't you think he's not alone? and he can't be armed?
things are so obvious and yeh, just full of shit.
urgh, whatever.
i'm just so 9127642532451627067511276 pissed. [if number can defines it] uhh okayy, random number.


and the girls wanna club.
if clubbing, the answer will be a definite NO.
deep in thoughts...

went to bb's camp to pass him ciggs, spare phone, charger and bought him dinner.
wanted a kiss/hug so bad but sadly, there ain't any.
he came out of the gate, took his stuffs and headed back to camp.
smoked together with a fcuking fence as a barrier. damn.
sighs, couldn't have him by my side again tonight.
in the past, i had a goal to look upon to.
at the very least, i can count the number of days.
yet now, i don't even know or have any single idea when is he gonna book out.
its worse than his overseas training in australia and his bloody hell "A-tag".
my pillow is always soaked with tears on recent nights,
worst of all, he ain't by my side these two nights.
wondering when will all these fcuked up shits end man. damn, kill me.
when the hell can we have a normal relationship?
yeh i know, 98 days more. it feels so near and yet so far can.
i ain't being dramatic but that's the truth.


anyway, blogging at cousin house now and yeh, gonna stay over tonight.
suggested going swimming tmr though i didn't intend to stay overnight or whatsoever.
but never mind, she has more than one set of bikinis so i guess it's gonna be fine.
hope that this swimming thingy will perk me up a little.
haven't been in my best of mood lately.
talking bout' swimming, was supposed to swim with the gang today.
it was a planned thingy with my boy, however this shitty thing happens.
overslept and didn't pick up their calls. they're gonna kill me when we meet up man.
i'm sorry dudes, was really too tired from all this "happenings" recently.
moreover, my phone was in silent mode and i fell asleep like in the morning.
i hope, tomorrow will be a better day for me.
damn, where's the "always look on the bright side of life" [together with the tune] eli?
i miss her and i miss bb.