solacement

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

well, isn't this pup cute? i found this cute little dog near my cousin's place.

it was abandoned by its owner and the owner had left his toy, food and shampoo too.

despite that there's leash, it wasn't leashed on and even thou so, he didn't wander off. he is still sitting at the spot where he was abandoned and was waiting for his owner. poor little puppy.

initially i wanted to call the SPCA. however, it might be put to sleep and so i don't wanna risk.

i went around asking my friends who will want to keep it.

jos was the first to come to my mind.

initially, jos said that i could put the pup over his place for a few days and wait till alvin books out and asked his mum bout keeping the pup.
i was so happy that as for the time being, this pup has a shelter.

when i called him back, he kinda hesitated. cheryl was also in the conversation.

he told me that if i want to put the dog over alvin's place, i have to bring him for a check up and bla bla bla. and its like hey, c'mon. not only will i bring him for checkup. i will go till that extend of vaccinating him and get him a license from the AVA. and that's what i told her.

the whole conv gave me the feeling that jos no longer wanna help so i told them forget it, i can contact other friends of mine and so, i hanged up.

YES! i was pissed. up till now, i'm still very pissed. say me petty , say me unreasonable. i don't care. i just don't understand what makes jos change his mind? And I will have problem bringing the dog around and not only does cheryl don't understand, she's pressuring me. neither are they worry and no callbacks. ~~and i know where i stand.~~

quarrelled with my mum and darl too but luckily, they do understand. mummy and darl, i'm sorry for the trouble that i had caused. but i love you two. (:

okie, back to the dog. just wanna vent my anger.

my cousin's friend took it home initally but she calls me again saying that her mum don't allow. so, i brought the pup back again.

amilia's friend wanted the dog so i intended to keep the dog till tmr and give it to her friend. i was waiting outside my house with the pup as my mummy is afraid of dogs.

however, my mummy allowed me to bring the hm back home for one night and i didn't sleep for the whole night.

i sat down and accompanied him. he will bark as he's afraid when he don't see anyone. everything was fine till early morning.

it went mad and it scratch and bite me when i try to calm it down.

my mummy saw the scars and forced me to bring it to SPCA.

i was on the point of desperation and no one was there to help me.

i have no choice but SPCA. and also, amilia couldn't contact her friend.

i feel so guilty, sad and angry about everything. i saw thru em' and i was devastated. but what can i do? i will feel guilty for life if the pup is really put to sleep. i'm really sorry to do this to him. but i seriously don't have other alternatives.

doggy, i hope you will forgive me by making this decision. i'm really sorry and it hurts me to do this. i'll be praying hard that everything will go smoothly for you.

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