solacement

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

well, not a really long day of work and school on monday.

cause i didn't go school and neither did i go for both today.

went swimming after work with sokwei on monday evening.

wasn't in a best of mood and like what i told jo, swimming helps to 'condensate' some of my troubles and worries away.

despite so, some still stays.

and though the raining days maybe over for b, it remains cloudy still for me.

watched sex and the city earlier and samantha, acted by kim cattrall, asked her friends something like, "is love all about making the other happy? is it all just about him? what about me being happy? are you happy everyday?"

charlotte, acted by kristin davis, went on replying something like, "yes, everyday. at the very least, not the whole day."

these keep on running thru' my head ever since the end of the movie.

and if somebody asked me that question, i think i will say that i'm happy as long as he's happy.

that's the common answer that girlfriends always say.

but how many girls really mean that when they says so?

well in my case, i don't wanna see him undergoing unnecessary stress.

i feel happy when i see him happy. [true]

i might have my unhappiness too [false] but when i see him happy, unhappiness just disappear.

after the day, i will just keep those unhappiness in me. [false]

during times when i'm gonna suffocate, jo and sokwei are always there.

and they're the ones whom make me feel better.

what's that? contradiction? i don't know.

forgive and forget is the way, i know.

but how can i forgive when he simply overlooks all those small yet sensitive and emotional issues?

even a spongebob can have her complaints etc and i'm just a damn dot of sponge.

am i blinded by movies, tales and fairytales?

hate these kinda feelings. go away will you? shooo.

anyway, sokwei will be coming down tomorrow for try-out and if she's working part-time, we will work on different shift.

me, in the morning; 8-1.

her, in the afternoon; 3-7.

full day at work tomorrow though, stay there to accompany her for her try-out.

ps: i know, you've proven yourself that day. i love you.

loves, eli.

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